Gerber Daisy

I would say it’s been one of those days, but it hasn’t

I would say it’s been one of those weeks, but it hasn’t

I would say it’s been one of those months, but it hasn’t

It’s been one of those years.

A sorrowful one with tears

Today’s weather isn’t helping.

Rain was falling like boulders

It pounded and sounded like Satan had come forth

At the start of the year it was glorious

16 and beautiful

Long brown and blonde hair bounced across my small torso

Ever since my fair mother died, it’s been lonely

I’ve been lonely

I feel like I move shaky and slowly

My feet twist below me

And I feel that I can’t touch the floor.

I’m headed for nowhere.

Absent from school, I lay like a rug, melted to the floor

Mom used to decorate the house with Gerber Daises

A large garden surrounded our house

Mother flaunted her beautiful gardening skills

Maybe I shouldn’t have taken those pills

Fog

The floor rose up to meet my eyes

Was I even still standing?

There was a sense of weightlessness

Short of breath

Sweating bullets

Happier than ever

See you soon Mom.